I want to share with you some animal wisdom that has been coming up for me personally in the last few months. 6 months...probably the whole year.
Guru Dog Neve is not happy. She's kind of hating life here in the city. She doesn't like the noise, the traffic, the people, the lack of grass, all of the fireworks (wtf people!). Ratty cat isn't in a good way either. His Feline Inflammatory Bowel disease is playing up and we are having trouble feeding him.
I don't tell you this to be a downer.
And I hope it doesn't make me look like a bad fur mama.
I tell you this because my sweet animals right now are taking on and mirroring - reflecting back to me - what is going on in my own heart and soul.
Animals mirror our emotions and inner turmoil, by reflecting our issues back to us through their own behaviour. They show us what is holding us back from true happiness, especially when we are unable to see it for ourselves.
An especially anxious cat is the mirror for their human’s constant state of worry. A dog that barks at people they pass during walks, is the mirror of their human’s deep feeling of insecurity.
I have not been happy for the last few months. 6 months...probably the whole year, living in the city here in London.
My whole life I have felt called to live in the countryside, and once I quit accounting, and wasn't shackled the CBD any longer, we finally made the move.
It was amazing.
Then we moved next to the sea which was even MORE amazing.
Then we moved to the other side of the world to inner London and it was shit.
Well - that's not entirely true.
For the first 6 - 9 months it was exciting, and new and amazing. But once that started to wear away I became increasingly aware that this city environment was not good for me.
My soul yearns for wide open spaces, fresh air, lots of trees and preferably with the sound of crashing of waves in the distance.
London has none of these things.
But I did that thing that I do sometimes, that we ALL do sometimes. I ignored what my heart was calling for. I rationalised and justified that we needed to be in the city. For work, because commuting was too hard, because FOMO, because I NEED to be near a Whole Foods Market (actual excuse used!).
So two things happened, which come up when I shut out what my heart wants.
I got sick.
Over the past 12 months I've experienced moments where I was in the worst pain of my life. My body was telling me no.
And the other thing, is my dear sweet animals started mirroring this inner turmoil back to me. Neve tends to take up my emotional pain, while Ratty has always taken on my physical stuff.
Why do they do this though? I mean - it's not fun for them (I mean who wants to be sad or in pain?). They do it because they love us, and because they are trying to teach us. The animals take our feelings and translate them into something we must acknowledge and deal with (like a stage five clinger codependant dog), so that we can find more peace within ourselves.
So now, thanks to my animals, I've come to the realisation that I MUST listen to my heart (this may be a life long lesson for me!) - we are moving out of the city.
We have put an offer in on a lovely country cottage, with a big garden and a giant park next door. There are trees. There is fresh air. There is lots of open space. There are no sounds of crashing waves, but 3 out of 4 within 20 minutes of London aint bad!!
And once we get there I know Neve will perk up, and start loving life again. I know Ratty's tummy will settle down and I know we will all be at peace again, because our hearts belong to the wild.
What are your animal friends mirroring within you right now?